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Author: wroberts

  • White Line Fever

    White Line Fever

    Takes Juan to Know Juan

    We understand it important to eat a healthy diet full of fresh fruits and vegetables.

    Sometimes when William is on the road and life does not go according to plan (does it ever?)it can be difficult to procure the basics of survival.

    Water, shelter and food are often luxury items in this European climate that has because arid and dry and desert-like.

    Take Care of Your Self

    After a 72 hour stretch of pushing his body to the limit in 30 Celsius temperature bicycling and then walking from Imperia, Italy to Menton France. William decided the bus with the people who have more common sense

    After a 3 day weekend in Menton to celebrate the birthday of what many people call “the greatest nation” on the 4th of July , William is on what seems like a mandatory journey through Italy.

    Don’t Let The Universe Decide!

    If you don’t make up your mind the universe will sometimes decide what is best for you and you may not like it!

    After missing the route to Sospel France, William became lazy minded and assumed he could take an alternate route.

    The route took him out onto the highway designated for automobiles and the Italian National Police decided that was a bad idea!

    The Long Arm Of The Law

    William found himself alone in Italian jail and then a passport misprint found him three days over the Schengen limit.

    Italian immigration kindly offered William the opportunity to be the first American he knows to be deported to America! Voluntarily

    Oh god! What a wonderful world!

    William extends a great thank you to the Italian government for giving him a thirty day free pass without a paddle!

    The agreement is William has thirty days to leave Italy as a voluntary candidate but if he leaves on his own he forfeits the assistance provided by the Italian immigration department.

    Oils Well That Ends Well

    If you think this is confusing, try explaining it to the police in a language you do not speak!

    Whew! Once again William has traveled long enough until it becomes necessary to learn yet another language!

    Stay tuned to this space and please drop us a line if you know anything at all about the Schengen visa limit laws..

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    Thank you for being you

  • Things That Go Bump In The Night

    Things That Go Bump In The Night

    Journal entry :July 14, 2026.

    last night I finally fell asleep behind the walls of my “crystal castle in the skies above Finale Ligure”

    Finally had a chance to do some work after being denied food for the weekend and being bounced between cities of Savona and Finale Ligure and again told to go to Savona where I was criminally threatened.

    After Midnight

    On the edge of sleeping I thought I heard the iron doors swing open in the chamber below.

    I dismissed it as the wind which flowed all night.

    I wake up! A bright light in my eyes!

    Crap! I think it’s the cops but it’s impossible. I climbed uphill for 30 minutes before entering the abandoned castle and no roads nearby.

    Sheep In Sheep’s Clothing

    I try to shield my eyes from the flashlight and prepare my statement about why I am in Italy and wish to return home to America.

    The voice from behind the flashlight is asking me why I sleep here. Speaking Italian,.

    The legs below the flashlight are too young and another pair too the left are similar.

    Out Of The Frying Pan

    Now I think trouble because it’s no police!

    Who is it and they don’t sound friendly. Demanding answer to question about me sleeping.

    I don’t speak , Italian. Spanish?

    They try to speak Spanish with me and finally lower the light because they are surprised I speak English.

    Into The Fire

    I realize it’s a couple kids out marauding and I offered to leave the castle for them.

    They say no, is okay.

    They leave. I stand up and step to the edge of the parapet to watch them drifting down the stairs.

    I can hear them speaking. One of them is the older brother trying to reassure the younger.

    The younger brother doesn’t seem convinced but they climb the castle wall to exit the same area I entered.

    Afterward

    Again I do not sleep. I am not worried about the kids coming back but who else is out there.

  • Let Them Eat Paper!

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    Welcome my son, welcome to the Italian bureaucratic machine.

    William entered Italy on a bicycle with the intention of returning to France on the same day.

    William missed the exit aand found himself trapped on the highway in Italy with no chance to exit or reverse direction.

    Vehicles in traffic traveled past in excess of 100 kilometers per hour.

    It can only be the fault of good fortune the Italian State Police were on the scene and provided rescue!

    William wishes to thank the Italian State Police for responding so rapidly!

    Italian Bureaucratic Action Is Forcing William To Remain In Italy

    The only reason William remains in Italy and Europe is the Italian authorities seized his passport.

    William is told by the Italian bureaucracy to rely on social services, organizations and churches to survive for 30 more days inside Italy.

    William only Wishes to Return Home to America

    On The Roundabout

    Thursday, July 9th, William met with wonderful people in Finale Ligure who helped with clothing and food and suggested he travel to Savona Italy for food assistance.for the weekend.

    William was urged to return to Finale Ligure on Monday when they could assist him further.

    Just Following Orders

    William commenced his journey to Savona on Friday morning.

    Remember, William has no auto or moto or bicycle. (Links open new tabs) As his bicycle was stolen while on the way to meet with the Italian authorities in Imperia, Italy.

    Why is William in Italy? Because the Italian authorities mandated William remain in Italy and hold his passport and access to his bank accounts.

    William is under an expulsion order from the Italian government who is holding Williams passport forcing William to remain in Italy with no money for food.

    Does This Make Sense

    On the journey to and from Savona to Finale Ligure, Italy. William had an incidental request for a passport which normally would not be a problem as William wished to comply.

    William could not comply so the local genderarmie and the police were need for several hours to read through reams of paperwork William carries with him in the case he is asked for his passport.

    William wishes very much to go home and relieve the strain in the Italian governmental paperwork producers and the police force and god forbid if William needs medical treatment and lands in an Italian hospital from an accidental while walking to one of his appointments with Italian Social Services?

    Who will pay for all of this bureaucratic action?

    William only wishes to return home.

    Yes William can leave Italy by walking to another country as he cannot travel by bus or train without passport. Then William can satisfy the expulsion order and write to the Italian government to. request his passport.

    If William leaves Italy he is violating his agreement with the Italian government who is requiring him to remain in Italy until he can be safely returned home.

    Savona Italy

    While in Savona, William had a great meal and his table mates informed him they were planning to steal his cell phone when he falls asleep.

    William walked back to Finale Ligure, Italy and another occasion required his passport but it took another call to police and government officials and thank the good Lord he is in Finale Ligure where he is told once again to return to Savona , Italy where he may find food. ???

    William has money in the bank. William wishes to purchase food with his money in his bank account.

    The Italian government has restricted Williams access to his account forcing William to rely on your tax dollars to call the police for simple incident such as sa passport request.

    What can William do?

    Walk once again from Finale Ligure to Savona , Italy to meet with another office dweller to fill papers and maybe put some mustard on them and eat them and hopefully no more police or needing a passport?

    Tuesday July 14 2026 Does William walk to Savona Italy today?

    Special thank you to Laura Rascioli for this in depth guide and tell all piece on the Secrets of Savona, Italy.

  • Sitting In Stillness

    Sitting In Stillness

    Remember

    The journey is the destination and sitting still and sitting in Stillness are two separate entities.

    Each step brings us closer to the goal of becoming, transforming, evolving, metamorphasis!

    Knowing each end never ends. Only another footstep on a journey we make our own each day.

    Pilgrims on the path to understanding what is important cannot be carried in your pockets.

    Many walk much further and faster but never take the first step.

  • Genetically Modified Oratory

    Genetically Modified Oratory

    We understand there are limited sets of facial features in the human genome but this story is ridiculously fascinating!

    It comes as no surprise that we see doppelgangers of Americans throughout our travels in Europe.

    Sometimes the remote twins look so similar William almost says Hello.

    This post contains excerpts of a letter sent to his daughter in United States

    Hold On To Your Socks

    But hold on to your socks for this next one. I climbed up the hill in Ventimiglia to get away from the highway thru the inner city.

    I knew in one block the crowd would be gone and one more block the streets were almost empty and they have more benches, trees, gardens and less fences. The smell of piss soaked Diesel cigarettes disappeared completely. (almost)

    Hold On To Your Cobblestones

    Overlooking the city is an ancient Church castle walled city still in use. Mostly as apartment buildings inside the old stone walls to house the people who work there.

    I was beat when I reach the top and stopped for coffee at a local shop and sit a bit at the restaurant. (Hold on to your socks, sister and please pardon my pronouns)

    Hold On To Your Hallucinations

    I look up because I see the pink polyester fabric with the embroidered rose pattern my mom bought me to wear for the school year in first grade. (Yes that shirt got my smart ass kicked more than once!

    Inside the shirt was you! (With a, yeah, I cut my hair shorter than short and bleached it myself bitch ,look)

    You ordered an ice cream (cuz it was hotter than a mofo yesterday) and you blinked your whole face and my whole family tree looked back at me.

    (My brother when he was young and my father and aunts and uncles from long ago and a lot of me)

    Then you, you looked back to me and smiled before digging into the ice cream.

    I’m still tripping on the pink polyester fabric and telling myself it’s probably not a good idea to start a conversation about how you look like my daughter and go from there.

    I really wanted to take a picture but too weird, right?

    So , I didn’t.

    Thank you for being you!

    This story begins where William lost his bicycle and found the lost city of Bodrighera.(Links open in new tabs)

  • Free Man Walking

    Who said , Freedom isnt Free? When I tell people I began my walk last year in Marbella, Spain, sometimes their face lights up because they think I have a lot of money. While it is true I am rich, in spirit. My wallet is not fat. I say it costs the same amount to walk

    A Tail in Two Cities

    They say, (them) the Universe only gives you what you accept. This is sometimes difficult to grasp as a novice conjuror who was taught to be grateful for every crumb to land upon my plate. (and I am, thankful.)We are trained to believe, suffering is good for the soul, money is the root of all evil, deny ourselves earthly pleasures. This crap was all written by the kings in the form of religion to deliver that opium to the masses before they realize there is enough for all of us on god´s green earth!

    More Horrible Porridge, Please Sir

    It is so deeply engrained in me that when someone gives me a loaf of bread, I eat it because I do not want to seem ungrateful.The sick trick here is, I got a wheat allergy going on and that free bread makes me sick. I forget this as I take another bite and another bite. Maybe I am just greedy for eating foods that are bad for me?

    I remember a colleague of mine saying, The Universe only gives us what we say Yes to. Now it makes sense to me. If I say yes to bread every time, the Universe gives me more because it thinks I love it!The same goes for being poor or hungry or bad habits or gravitating to places that look like they cost less money. I may be the first to tell you, it costs a lot more to live in the Ghetto of the Soul!

    The Ghetto of Soul

    But if I keep saying yes to all the crap, the Universe gets confused and keeps feeding me more crap nobody wants, no how! No way!If I keep putting on the same old pair of Stank Ass pants and shoes and foods and people, places and things, the Universe will keep giving me more of the same.This is a difficult habit to break because our brains want predictability and familiararity and are very uncomfortable trying on a new pair of temporal lobes. Come on Cerebellum! Cartegena and the Road to Riches has begun to appear.

    If A Plea Falls On Deaf Ears, Will Anyone Hear It?

    The only thing you need to change your life, is to change your life. Sometimes I fall into the same old trap because my societal training is so complete. If I keep doing the same old thing, the Universe will keep giving me the same old thing.I realize now it is my brain not feeling comfortable in a new situation. But Maybe I need to practice new situations until that feels comfortable. Acting as if you have been ther’e before helps you feel more comfortable in a new situation. Breathing into your fear and taking the plunge into a new environment is as refreshing as diving off that cliff and landing in the ice cold, sparkling blue waters of a new life!

    Do not just stand there on the precipice wondering what if… Take a deep breath , count to three and jump! Ready? One… Jump!

    Ha Ha Ha!

  • Darwinista

    Confounded Interest

    It begins at the cellular level. If Darwin was correct and the one cell demonstrates the signs of a life form. It eats and drinks and excretes itself while responding to external stimuli.

    Now imagine 31 trillion of those cells stitched together in better form than Frankenstein’s monster.

    That conglomeration of life forms, form the form of you. The Human Being.

    Mind Over Matter, Does It Matter?

    This walking, talking, ever-evolving collection of living and dying cells living and dying together are all striving to survive.

    When the sun burns your skin cells they send signals to the brain cells through nerve cells. All of these cells are differentiated but working together as one system.

    It is a wonder we can even think at all! Do you ever wonder when the first collection of cells decided it would be a great idea to live and work together?

    Who decided who is in charge? Did they hold a blind vote to stuff the smartest cells into the skull for protection?

    Loosely Correlated Coalition

    This ponzi scheme of the human body wakes up every day with only one thing on it’s mind.

    To keep the organization of organisms alive for one more day.

    Separate But Equal

    These single cells demonstrating signs of life are amazingly similar to the cells that compose all other life as we know it.

    The bee is the tree is the flower is my trick knee is the answer to the riddle of why?

    Many forms of life form coalitions to mutually benefit and exhibit remarkably similar social structures on both a micro and macro scale.

    The Will To Survive

    Can you feel the power of thirty one trillion cells alive and striving for survival inside you?

    What will you do with your 24 hours today?

  • Mind Melting Meditation

    Mind Melting Meditation

    Be sure you are in a safe space before you practice this mind melter. You will remain conscious but intensely focused enough to not notice other objects or people around you.

    Take a Deep Breath and Count To Infinity

    We like to begin our meditations with a deep breathing or progressive relaxation technique to get us into the zone,

    After enough practice and training yourself you will be aware of when and if you are in a good meditation space and the onset of the zone, so to speak, comes quickly as you have created and changed neural pathways in your brain..

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    Focused Breathing

    This is our favorite method for releasing your relaxation and feel good neurotransmitters such as serotonin, dopamine and GABA.

    Another you may be familiar with is DMT or the Bliss chemical or God particle .The ever increased popularity of ayuhasca is again in the headlines.

    The debate continues over the reality of it’s existence but we are living proof!

    Target Those Neurons

    Place the tongue against the roof of the mouth behind the teeth and pull in a slow breath you can feel behind and between the eyes to bath the prefrontal cortex in oxygen and love. This is your Third Eye.

    Sense the air moving slowly over , under and around your prefontal cortex or Third Eye.

    The Sensation You Seek In Meditation

    Armchair scientists love to claim the brain feels no pain or anything at all for that matter.

    We Sense our thoughts and sometimes they are painful. With practice you will be able to feel around inside your brain and sense the parts of the brain responsible for receiving sights, sounds, smells etc.

    Deeper And Deeper

    Notice how you can steer the breath around the inside of your brain.

    Behind the prefrontal cortex, directly between your ears is the beginning of the limbic system. This is where meditation starts to become fun.

    You communicate with your limbic system through the breath and here you can bath the hypothalamus and pituitary gland with oxygen and they will reward you with relaxation!

    Going further behind the pituitary sits the amygdala and spend a few minutes massaging it with the softness of the breath.

    The Moment That Lasts One Thousand Years

    By this time you know your way around the inside of the brain and we will not leave you hanging here.

    Finding the pineal gland for the first time is an intensely gratifying and rewardingly rich experience.

    You will exclaim, where has this been my whole life? Then you will keep going back for another hit of the super natural , supernatural , DMT trip you created with your own brain! Isn’t that ecstatic?!?

    Again, Make sure you are in a safe space before attempting This Experience. You will be focused in a state of relaxed concentration and will not wish to be disturbed.

    If you are disturbed you will be able to switch your awareness and focus to anything needed your attention.

    Thank you for being you!

  • Holy Scandal International, Batman

    Holy Scandal International, Batman

    A funny thing happened on the way to Imperia, Italy. William was once again the victim of a strange but true crime.

    During the worst heat wave Europe can remember William stopped to refill his trusted Santa Vittoria water bottle.

    William thought he was alone in the town square as he slaked a tremendous thirst. William drank 12 liters that day.

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    Paradise Lost

    William turned his attention to his well worn paper maps for only minutes. That was more than enough time for the theif to snatch his bicycle from behind. Guess we do not need maps for Italy Tour of Bicycle anymore.

    William wasted no time crying over spilt milk, as there was no time to spare and no water to be wasted as he was keeping his appointment with the Imperial forces of Italy.

    Purgatory

    William found his load much lighter, both mentally and physically as well.

    The speed advantage of a bicycle can be lost in momentum as the Alps in Italy will not be outmatched by France!

    Remember this in the 30 degree centigrade heat of early European summer.

    Calling All Angels

    The next day William found himself once again summoned to France having no bicycle, no communications and only the shoes on his feet!

    He drew mightily on the power of silent prayer and meditation to increase his faith and intuition.

    William also drew mightily on the water he sourced miraculously from anywhere it could be found during this 40 kilometer walk from Sanremo, Italy to Menton, France.

    Paradise Found

    William found his personal protector in Saint Michael and his ever loving provider of food and guidance in Saint Gabriel.

    Remember to be forever grateful for every drop of water, breath of air and crust of bread that crosses your lips!

    Thank you Angels!

    Is This The End of William’s Journey?

    William sits again on hallowed ground knowing he does not need the laws of man to tell him what he ought to do.

    We will write more on this subject later as we respect the authority of the Italian government it may be necessary to return to America prematurely.

  • From Tende To Menton France And Back!

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    Every day can appear to be an uphill climb if you are not aligned with your Selfs true purpose.

    Again William tells himself to return to Menton, France and the Universe responded with punch to his belly that left him flat on his back and gasping for air!

    Hell Is For Children

    God turned up the heat this weekend of June 19-21 in the south of France in what can only be a scorched earth policy decreed from above.

    William pedaled desperately uphill towards Tende as his brain melted like margarine in a cerebral skillet.

    Free Phone Company Does Not Honor Contracts

    There was no water or food to be found as the markets were closed and the Free.prepaye.com company did not honor the thirty day contract William purchased.

    This leaves William unable to access his bank accounts as the Free.prepaye company Defaulted on the contract.

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    Stay True To Your School

    William found rest and respite despite the heat when reaching Tende and the higher elevations of the nearby mountains.

    William is grateful for this as well as everyone can expect.

    Ironically, William finds more of nature thriving in thick, full, green along with all the colors of the rainbow near the mountain tops..

    The drought is fierce near the lower latitudes as well as altitudes

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